A Beautiful Life

I am a terrible person...for promising to update and never doing so! However, on the bright side...it means that I'm so busy that I don't have time to blog which is something that I actually LOVE!

Needless to say, we've been overwhelmingly busy and I often have to remind myself that Lee and I have the same end goals because our days are lived so separately which is a grave contrast to last year's afternoons filled with laughter and talking about our dreams. 

Lee is working like a slave and learning about different people with different ideas and I am on a mission that I can't even define at school. It just feels like we're so far apart, but when he comes home at night I feel like there was no gap at all and as if everything is okay again. I think it's been such a big re-adjustment for us - this work thing that is...but we're growing, which in the end is all that matters. 

Some very good news is that I'm feeling so much better healthwise. For the past two months I have gravitated between deathly ill and decently healthy far too many times and Lee was so desperate to get me better that he made me promise I'd go to the doctor in a moment of weakness. Anyhow...it's been such a weird illness. I get supreme back ache, extreme nausea and no appetite whatsoever. It's quite scary when you haven't eaten or drank anything for three days and your body starts flashing warning lights. I am still not sure what it is that's caused the sickness, but I strongly suspect a gluten allergy or some type of viral infection. When I stay away from breads and pastas I feel like I can take on the world. When I eat them as I normally would, my body gives in. How am I supposed to give pasta up? I'm the freekin pasta queen!

In general I've been feeling much better and so many people are commenting that I look healthier, seem happier and have lost weight. I think they're all bonkers ofcourse. How can my face look thinner?! But I do have a question for anyone willing to comment - Is it possible for one's stomach to shrink so much that you eat less than half of the portions that you used to? This is a foreign concept to me. 

Last thing on the agenda for today...is my anger management issues.

I know, I am embarrassed to even admit it! I have been feeling these upsurges of anger over the past few months. There are days when my earphones tangling can send me into a rage. But my bog problem is people. I prefer staying away from people because they irritate me more often than not. I get angry at bad service - really angry. So much so that I think it's embarrassing even Lee. I'm writing this here because I think that part of solving the issue is admitting that there is one. I am already so much better - Lee says so. I just try to breathe really deeply and calm myself when I feel a fit of rage coming on. I think I'm just not letting go of stressful situations and that's translated into this anger. Anyhow - it must go! I'll let you know how I do!

That's all for now!

wends x